tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-84972222927210000752011-11-28T01:01:44.958ZAnother blog from a guy who really should know better at his age!Middle aged submissivehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07405941590564747246noreply@blogger.comBlogger781100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8497222292721000075.post-80359745506513664062011-10-29T20:36:00.001+01:002011-10-29T20:36:15.645+01:00

I was out last night, into the wee hours of this morning (well actually until 8.30am) at a house party. But of course this was more than that, with everyone in the house into fetish and BDSM. There was a huge range of people there.. aged from 22 to 60 and with experience in the scene from 40 years to 40 days. So all in all, a good crowd of people who mostly knew each other or were soon chatting

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i can feel You watching me, waiting to see what i will say or do next in my desire to serve You. Your presence is hidden but felt all the time. It's a game we both play but only You will be the winner as i know i cannot stop myself from wanting to serve You, submit to You, obey You.

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I do, by most standards, lead a pretty hedonistic life. I indulge my passions for BDSM and fetish on a regular basis as well as my exhibitionist tendencies. And as a result of this I often experience something new and exciting as happened last week when I had one of the most erotic and arousing experiences I have had for a long time. Picture the scene - dressed in latex, in a hot tub with another

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Just recently I have been reflecting on the way I use the internet to communicate with others and how it has changed over the years and especially in the last two years how I have moved from looking at and contributing to BDSM related forums to using more social media centric sites such as twitter and Facebook. Back in about 2001 I think, a new site appeared in the UK that was focussed very

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So, finally the day arrived, the one so many of had been waiting for – The English Mansion Femdom Summer Ball. Much anticipation had been occurring on various boards and over twitter and it was going to be a great day for all that were going. The original plan was that I would be going with Mistress and be under her “protection” but of course the best laid plans etc. meant that due to

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Today was a great day. It was great for many reasons which included seeing friends in the fetish scene, filming for a great fetish website and of course trying something new! There is a maxim about old dogs and new tricks which quite frankly is rubbish as was proven today, so let me try to paint the scene. A stunning fetish Mistress, Liza, me and her slave all in a Jacuzzi. Her slave and I are

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Well, nothing of real note but at last, after many years of not really having the desire to change it or in reality the time, I have managed to give my own website an update and a fresh new look.Out go the oh so '90's frames and in come nice new menus with a consistent look and feel across the site. What is the URL I hear you cry... my home page is where you will find it. Nothing grand, just some

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Ask me anything http://formspring.me/subray

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Much has been going on since I last posted and I am going to try to bring it all up to date very soon but.. in brief - Pedestal on a Friday - Not good and did not enjoy it. The English Mansion - Filmed with those fantastic people and got taken on a new journeyFetish Liza - Had the true pleasure of filming with Liza and Rebekka Raynor and had a blastMistress - Had some lovely time with Her at LFF

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So, Pedestal has moved to a Friday. It’s just a day you may think but it will, I suspect, change the dynamic of the club (OK, this was actually suggested by someone I respect huge amounts). Why You ask (or at leas I hope you are) will the dynamic be changed? Well, Pedestal has, for a long time now, been on a Thursday night even though, many years ago, it was actually on a Saturday. And, being

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In the last month, I have been to a couple of what are usually described at “Pay’n’Play” parties. It was interesting to see how different they were and how one worked brilliantly and one was a major let-down. With the most recent party, it was a warm, friendly and a lot of fun. I knew some of the people there but not well having seen them at clubs etc or in one case done some filming. I did

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I make no secret of the fact that I hate the cane. It is a deep rooted hatred, to the point I am prepared to walk away if told I am going to get it. It’s the physics involved in the blow. All that pressure in one small line across the arse cheeks is not for me I’m afraid. Now, a good hard flogging across the back and shoulders, or the sting of a single tail on the back – well that just sends me

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I am mildly excited! For the first time in ages i am going to Pedestal. It has been almost 9 months since I last went so this will be something I am really looking forward to. But the thing that will make it strange is that I am going alone without Her. That is something new. We spoke last week, before She went away and I asked if I could go and was told I can but have to behave. That's a hard

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I was asked recently by someone who had read my blog how much of what I had written was true. I have to be honest that I was slightly taken aback by the question seemed to imply that I was either making up the content or, at the very least, exaggerating the reality. The fact is that all that have I written about, when I talk about events, rather than my thoughts of findom etc have happened. And

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Without doubt, without question or hesitation, I HATE  collarme.com with a passion. The site brings out the very worse in the whole fetish and BDSM scene in the way people are treated, profiles are falsely created and just the whole fucking thing. Of course, I have no doubt that there are many genuine users there, mostly Pro-Dommes advertising their services, a few couples and mostly guys

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Once again I found myself involved in one of my favourite activities, that of filming for a BDSM site, in this case The English Mansion. Without doubt, this is probably one of the best sites from the UK, if not globally and it is always a fun day filming with them. For the first time I worked one on one with the renowned and wonderful Mistress Sidonia who introduced me to a new painful pleasure,

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Of course I had heard of forced intoxication, or forced intox, many times. But up until last night I had never really experienced it and now, well it seems I have under the influence of a lot of whiskey promised to be the slave of a Goddess I have known online for a long time. Let me paint the scene. I cam home from the pub around 10.00pm in a pretty happy mood. Jumping online to check a few

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Today, reading the online edition of The Sun I realised that my fetish clubbing days could be over! For those that do not know her, or are unaware of her, in the UK we blessed (irony) with having one of the most publicity seeking individuals ever born who goes by the name of Katie Price, AKA Jordan whose life is regularly lived through the tabloids and commercial TV (and for the sum of £2 a

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Today, I met my favourite ever Domme/Mistress. Having moved away from London 5 years ago, to go back to Australia I was left in a strange sense limbo that took sometime to leave me. I had found with this Mistress someone who I could, without hesitation or condition give myself to totally. I never questioned what was going to occur and felt so safe it is hard to describe. Then tonight, over

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It seems to have been so long since I last truly submitted and gave myself over without question, hesitation and unconditionally. The need that used to burn so strongly inside of me had gone away, or at the very least, had become less needy. But a chance invitation to a weekend away in Cornwall with some friends has changed that. It has shown me that really the desire is always there, the need to

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The last few months have caused me concern. It is as a malaise of some sort and grew into apathy. Then today it hit me what was wrong. I am bored. Really really bored. Bored of going out to clubs, seeing the same people talk about the same things, the same cliques, the same sense that no-one and nothing has moved on. Of course, I am as just as much to blame! I go to the same clubs where I meet

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Here is the dilemma. In itself, chastity is quite comforting. To me, there is an inner peace I reach when I am locked up in a CB and unable to touch myself. It removes issues from my life and works to make me more productive, less stressed. Really.. it does. I am not making this shit up. For a long time I mocked chastity but of course I had never really tried it. It was only when I started to

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So, it has been awhile since I have written anything. In part there is a general malaise about me that is very work related and the desire to write has not been there. Also, Twitter has been, in a way, replacing my blog. But, there are things that happen that can only really be fully written down in a blog as Twitter does of course have it’s limitations. So, what’s new. Well, I went to Pedestal

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There have been, over recent weeks, quite a few blog posts around the subject that all women (not just some, or a few but all!) are superior to me. But fortunately, there are some more sensible Goddesses out there who question this rationale and indeed look to debunk it all together. What seems, to me, to be the issue is that so many men are trying to enter into the BDSM world without ever

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Went to a new “old” club last night. New in that the venue has changed, old because it is a club that has been going for some time in various guises. Once again it gave me the excuse to dress up in my favourite fetish material, latex and going in the knowledge that I am going to get a really good thrashing across my back with some new floggers. This I know because I have been told by a friend who

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Life seems to have taken a lot of different turns over the last 6 months or so. One the one hand, I have been trying to open up to my partner and show her the BDSM side of my life but seemingly to no avail. As a consequence I still lead this secret life away from her and suspect I always will. I still post on various websites etc. as it's a way, to me, of retaining some sanity. My life, for over

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As economy takes a hit, women become dominatrixes to pad their income Saw this report from New York. In many ways it mirrors what is happening in London as well. However, the downside is that it leads to a state where there is a distinct lack of quality and with the long term providers now having to compete for a lot less business. Not sure if it is good thing or bad but definitely a sign of the

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So, in some respects against my judgement as the purpose of this blog was always to maintain a sense of anonymity, here are some pictures of the film done with femdomfilms.eu last week. Given the title of the film – Anal Academy – I am sure it does not need much explanation! Due to the extreme cold, Anal Academy 2 will be done in the summer!"

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I came across this blog today and it looks very good. Whilst I have no objection to the blogs written by Professional Dommes, (unlike Bitchy Jones for example) it is always good to see a blog written from the perspective of someone involved in a female led relationship.

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So today was spent making a film for Femdomfilms.eu, a UK based fetish film maker. It was a great day with the exception of probably being the coldest day of the year so far! The scenes involved being undressed for a lot of the time and standing on a concrete floor whilst various things were done to my and two others rear ends by the gorgeous Mistress Rebekka Raynor. You would have thought that

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Following the protest on Sunday, a report of the protest appears here. Whilst only about 100 actually turned out (blame the weather) I suspect this is not the last we have heard of it.

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I have just seen this inflatable latex alien egg on the d.vote website. I have used some of their inflatable’s before and they are of the most outstanding quality. This has to be the best item I have ever seen and whilst it is not cheap, I think some serious saving up may be required.

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Under this Labour Government, there have been many freedoms taken away or powers increased for the legal agencies in the UK. On Sunday, there is a march to protest at the latest loss of freedom with a very badly drafted piece of legislation that comes into effect on Monday. This is of course the ban on violent images that has been such a talking point amongst the BDSM and fetish communities.

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With my hatred of collerme.com growing by the day, I came across this site and just had to laugh as it seemed half the profiles on collerme.com must have read it and used the instructions. Read it and enjoy.

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I have written in the past about doing film work for websites. It is, in my view, the best fun to be had with like minded people for free plus.. you even get paid! After a few cancellations, I will be doing some work with a new site to me, although it has been around for quite awhile, and one whose blog I follow from time to time, namely Femdomfilms. Originally I would have been working with the

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Well, its 9 days into 2009 and I suspect this is going to be a very grim year from a financial perspective. I know of many friends who have lost their jobs, working in the financial sector as I do and as a consequence they are looking at their lifestyle and what can be cut back. Fetish would seem to be high on the list. Still, we cannot help the way we are programmed and for me, I cannot imagine

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Two interesting articles appeared in yesterdays Independent newspaper here and here. They are both on the same subject, i.e the upcoming legislation on the possession of offensive images but both are on opposite sides of the coin. Personally, I fully agree with Jerome Taylor who has, previously looked at the way BDSM is portrayed in the UK media. He seems to be quite in synch with the way most

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By typing BDSM into the Addictomatic website, I came across a fantastic posting from the gizmondo website! I particularly like the Master R's four poster play-frame and am seriously tempted to purchase one for my own bedroom to play more at home! Imagine the pleasure of having one and of course the hidden pleasure of vanilla friends not really knowing what you had in your bedroom when they came

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Nothing to do with fetish or BDSM but still poignant and probably my favourite Christmas poem. Advent 1955 The Advent wind begins to stirWith sea-like sounds in our Scotch fir,It's dark at breakfast, dark at tea,And in between we only seeClouds hurrying across the skyAnd rain-wet roads the wind blows dryAnd branches bending to the galeAgainst great skies all silver paleThe world seems travelling

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I have long held a curiosity about the while Hypno Domme thing and what it entailed. Mainly I think out of my seemingly endless desire to try new things of a sexual and BDSM flavour. But, like a lot of things I had not gotten round to it just yet. It seems to be widely practiced (with a large number of online Mistresses seeming to offer it) and a few Pro-Dommes I know personally would seem to

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It sort of crept up on me without warning. But suddenly, I found myself needy. I crave contact, anything from Mistress. I need to know she has read my message, that my words have pleased her. But nothing...no response, no indication. Then of course the self doubt creeps in and with that the fears and feelings that soon it will all be over despite assurances that nothing has changed, that things

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I cannot count the hours I have spent on my knees in session and otherwise. Over the years it must add up to a days on end. Coupled with a love of skiing my knees have taken quite a battering over the years. Yesterday, I woke up and as I straightened my leg I was in severe pain as I realised straight away that I had somehow twisted my knee. This is just to much and as I thought about it, hobbling

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I love this post by Ms Slide. To me, it is the best definition of the relationship between a Professional Mistress and a paying submissive I have seen. So many posts you see out there seem to argue that because the client pays he (and it usually a he) is in effect topping and controlling the session. But that argument has never felt right to me and Ms Slide, better than anyone, has shown me why.

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i can feel You watching me, waiting to see what i will say or do next in my desire to serve You. It is as if there is a cord from Your pc to mine, making sure i am always there when You tug it, pulling me to You, keeping me close but at the same time, letting me have enough freedom to live my life.The desire to open up, to expose my soul becomes stronger each day and soon the day will come when i

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You try to stay away, to not look at the PC but the desire is there, the hope that you have a message from someone who all of a sudden is special to you. Constantly pressing refresh to see if a message is waiting that has not been notified to your email. You want approval, you desire contact and hope beyond hope that something is there for you. Each time nothing, but still you hope that perhaps

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My new favourite website thanks to Eileen and maymay.  Male Submission Art

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I find myself in a new situation, quite unexpectedly and time will tell how it develops and whether i have the stamina to stay. I feel I cannot say to much but am sure that I will be able to say more later as it develops as, having already disclosed this blog to Her, it could well become the vehicle for expressing more of my thoughts to Her, but that is not guaranteed.

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I was reading an ad on one of the myriad of contact sites recently and one struck me in the words used by the poster - "I do like to be a very dominat woman!" (her spelling of the word not mine). I thought that in certain circumstances I like to be a very dominant man as well but that does not mean I want to be a Dom. Far from it. So, just because someone is dominant does that mean they make a

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Quite unexpected, I had an email on Monday from an old friend who I used to play with. We stopped because she fell in love with a 'nilla guy and wanted to devote to him. But now, 5 years later she finds herself single again because he turned out to be unable to keep his cock in his pants. My dilemma is that I deep down I loved this person and if the chance was there (which it now seems it was)

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One day, you suddenly wake up and bang.. you find yourself missing something very important in you life. For the past few weeks, I have found myself thus. Not really knowing what it was, unable to put a finger on what it was. Then I realised. It is contact. Contact with the Person who gives a lot of my life meaning. But of course, that is the easy part, realising what is missing. The hard part is

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A recent thread on the UK BDSM board Informed Consent is discussing why bondage porn is still predominatly showing images of females tied up. A great response is made by Ms Slide and and added to here on her blog. What I did not find surprising is who made the most outspoken comment regarding feminism but also the tone of the argument but of course, I do find myself agreeing with it. Just

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A quiet whisper is all I need A firm touch which dispels my fears.   Your possessive touch I so desire. A spirit has touched me and I now heal.   The touch which strokes my body and soul. Makes me whole, no longer lost.   My thoughts no longer confuse me. In your hands, my eyes open and for the first time I do see.   My whispers are soft and gentle spoken in the simple word. For the entire

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The clocks change on Sunday morning at 2am when it becomes, as if magic, 1am! I will be at Club Smack so that should mean an extra hour or debauchery and fun to be had. Oh what fun.

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Two of my favourite blogs have recently gone... Miss Troy Orleans and Miss Victoria X. I wonder if this is coincidence or a reflection of the recent police activity in New York with the raid on well known houses of BDSM.

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I was asked recently to write about a 1000 words on what I thought described the perfect Goddess (Goddess worship being a very relevant topic in my life at the moment). This is what I came up with A Goddess has very special attributes. A Goddess is there to be worshipped, venerated and adored. Her orders and wishes are to be obeyed without question, without hesitation and if you adore a Goddess

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Reading the How to be a Mistress blog today, reminded me of a conversation I had whilst driving back to London after filming for The English Mansion. I had two Mistresses in the car, one from the US and one from the UK and we were talking about going to fetish clubs etc. when the Mistress from the UK said that she did not go to fetish clubs because being a Mistress was her job and she had no

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There I am, having a chat on yahoo to a person who I am starting to like a lot, probably too much but that's a different story, when we start talking about this blog. She is only the second person I have told about it and probably the last! I am conscious that some of the stuff I have written may seem that I can do no wrong. But that is not my intention. I have many faults and accept most of them

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OK Financial Domination is not, in all instances, a lazy way to dominate and some, a few, do put effort into what they do in terms of maintaining contact with the slaves, giving them visual treats and updates. But, I still hold that for the majority, they just look at it as a way of getting money from guys for doing very little other than sending off the occasional email or yahoo chat.   Oh..

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Why is is that chastity is seen as the desired end game for so many Dommes and especially those who practice the bizarre act of Financial Domination?? I have recently been chatting to a very nice person who made contact with me via another site I belong to. I have, I will admit, been curious about Financial Domination as I have always questioned the satisfaction that can be achieved from this and

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How do you react when your Aunt seems to know a lot of the same people you do?Let me explain. This particular Aunt is only two years older than me. At 17, I was introduced to the Blues Party scene - the early sound systems that you see regularly at Notting Hill Carnival now days and really my musical and drugs education started from there.So, we met up for a drink the other night and just

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I am often asked who else knows about my kinks. Well for me, most people who know me and the majority of my family aged between 21 and 70! I made a very conscious decision sometime ago to not hid what I was and what I liked. To me, it seemed the easiest way and also the most honest. Why should I live my life behind a veil of what others did not understand when others who had alternative

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Had a message today from friend who happens to run one of the biggest BDSM/Femdom website's in the world asking me if I want to do some filming week after next at Ess & Emm. Of course, I would have been rude to say no, so of course I do! What's not to want?? I get to spend the whole day at one of the best play-spaces in the UK (to which I have yet to go to) and spend the day with two stunning

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Pedestal came and went. The new venue seems to be settling in quite nicely and the vibe is getting there. My only real comment is that because of the size of the venue, there were a lot of very empty spaces - mainly the main dance area. But other than that, it was great to see old friends and make some new as well as meet the lovely Rebekka Raynor dressed very smartly in a business style suit. I

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Eventually, I knew I would broach this topic as it seems it is one that is brushed under the carpet and never really talked about but here goes. Firstly, I have to come clean and say that I am not totally innocent in all of this. I have taken more drugs that I can honestly remember over the years. E, Coke, MDMA, Ketamine, Amyl and very occasionally speed were the drugs of choice. Nowadays, Viagra

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I have a deep, dark, secret. I love Transexuals, Shemales, Transgenders and any other description that may be applicable for the "third" sex. Especially the very few that are also dominant (of which there are very few unfortunately). But, on the rare occasion I get to meet a TS Mistress, the power play, the whole dynamic is one that I often struggle to come to terms with and understand. I have,

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To me, this is one of the most ridiculous questions to be asked in the first exchange I have with someone looking to get to know me. I have no idea how I can serve you and indeed if, by the end of the call, I would want to serve you. D/S is a two way street and in both directions there needs to be respect. But for a "Domme", who has no idea of what I do and what I have done to say, when I respond

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The whip sings loudlyStraining in his ropesGrowing anticipation

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Fetish/BDSM parties, as others in the BDSM blogosphere have commented, are great and who am I to disagree! Having just got home, still on a bit of an endorphic rush and unable to sleep I wanted to put down some words. I am, I have to say, fortunate. Now in my mid forties, I have been involved in some shape or form in this lifestyle since I was 18, so coming up to thirty years. In that time I have

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In my mind, I am not owned by Her. But of course, the is just my trying to delude myself and thinking that there is something better over the fence. Of course, I know, from experience that there is nothing that comes close to the relationship I have wiht Mistress. After we went through a very formal collaring ceremony some time ago now and since then the dynamic of our relationship has changed

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A friend pointed me to this link.. Naughty Travel KitApparently it is fun-packed and is targeted at the kinky traveller! Well, personally, it does not even come close to what I would consider taking on my travels. Where are the nipple clamps, the candles, the needles, the flogger? A blind-fold, a feather and a warming massage oil does not really create a sense of kinky in my mind. But then

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From MVXI hit himwith a whip.He said:OUCH A slight edit..done with respect. I hit him harderwith a whipHe cry's out loud Pain and Pleasure

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And with the weekend comes the time to have fun. It has been awhile since I have been out and about to the various fetish clubs in London, but this weekend I am going to make the effort, get myself together and make it to Club Smack and with an almost guaranteed certainty over to Stunners for a sleazy Sunday. Saturday may well be a shopping day, off to North London to visit the many fetish shops

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Am I wrong in saying that I have no objection to the association of fetish wear and a Mistress? Or, as some are saying, I have been poisoned by a male dominated pornography industry that seeks to stereotype the fetishistic men have of a dominatrix? Is this image wrong? Is the person in the image just kowtowing to the majority, i.e male submissive's who expect her to look like this? Is there a

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I have finally found a blog that seems to relate very much to my own feelings and desires for BDSM. By far the majority of blogs I seem to come across are about guys wanting a 24/7 relationship or they are exploring BDSM inside their marriage or (and this is the majority by far) are blogs by female submissive's of which I have zero interest. However, the power of Google Reader gave me a

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My most fulfilling relationship in a BDSM context was with someone who also happened to be  a Pro-Domme. For me, she was my girlfriend, lover and of course Mistress.  There was a different level of everything I had ever experienced before in terms of my submission to her, the intensity of feelings towards her and, for want of a better word, the level of play. I had/have no issue with the fact

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I am sure I am not the only one to notice it but in the last few months, the debate, and seeming loathing of any female who dares to earn a living as such and of course, finally, those who fully support the whole Pro-Domme ethos. Does it even matter that it seems to be such a divisive subject in the "community" when, for many, they only have access to a fee charging Mistress. Whilst there are

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How weird is this.. I am a huge fan of social networks such as Facebook and Myspace. I am able to use one each for my normal "vanilla" life and the other for the part of my life that the majority would not understand. And in any event, do I want people I work with seeing that I leap around in latex in fetish clubs! Back to the point I am making. Cruising through some pictures on a friends Myspace

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So, here we we are again. Having had several blogs in the past and then finding I had no time to edit or maintain them, I find myself with time on my hands and the desire to put my thoughts, feelings and experiences down came to me.As a first post, I guess a bit about me and why this blog. Well, I have called it "Old Enough To to Know Better" simply because I am told, constantly, that I should

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