Quite unexpected, I had an email on Monday from an old friend who I used to play with. We stopped because she fell in love with a 'nilla guy and wanted to devote to him. But now, 5 years later she finds herself single again because he turned out to be unable to keep his cock in his pants.
My dilemma is that I deep down I loved this person and if the chance was there (which it now seems it was) would have asked her out and had bf/gf type stuff. But that is as was. Now, she wants to get back into the fetish life and asked if I would fancy a play session with her to take some pictures for her new website etc. Of course, being the slut I am, I said yes. But now, almost a week later, I suddenly find myself hesitant in my decision as I feel that I am just there to give her something she wants rather than for us both to get something out of it.
Am I being to picky? I have on offer the chance to get flogged, hurt and buggered, to spend a good few minutes tied up and pretty much anything else I feel like doing. But there is the rub. It is what I feel like doing rather than being told what to do. I will not be submitting - I will be directing and that is what takes the pleasure away from me.
Sadly, I know in my mind what I will end up doing as I am just a slut who likes to play. But I suspect it will be the end of a friendship that went away and briefly came back again for the wrong reasons.
