Friday. A not particularly good day. Lots of stress at work, aggro at home and few other things all contrived to make me feel down and in one of my rare funks. Not really felt like this for some time now as the situation with Mistress Diva has allowed me to focus on BDSM and other areas in a different way than before. But that said, i was feeling down and sorry for myself on Friday. So, on line chatting with Mistress Diva, telling Her this suddenly invitation to come over to Her house for a chat. Oh, and to bring my bag "just in case". So, eventually got over to Mistress Diva's house, remembering the address and how to get there. Was not sure of what to expect but i was surprised to be asked to attend a private party with Mistress Diva. Now this was not what i was expecting but if it was designed to lift my mood it worked without doubt. i felt all fluttery and nervous inside as apart from Pedestal i had not been with Mistress Diva as her slave in a public place. i was given a few tasks to carry out, to get some food & drink before leaving. That done, we left for High Wycombe for the party. Mistress Diva looked lovely, something i always notice.
The party was a nice gathering and there were some people i knew there which always helps. i was there though for Mistress Diva and i found myself kneeling beside Mistress Diva feeling happy and comfortable. Was this really me i thought to myself. But inner thoughts did worry me in that it could be perceived that i had acted petulant and was hoping subconsciously that something like this would happen. In reality i was amazed that Mistress Diva invited me over and it would never be something i would have tried to manipulate to happen.
Mistress Diva had a new "toy" with Her. Her short single tail whip. It was going to prove interesting when Mistress Diva tried out the whip on me as i have never, and i mean never ever, been whipped before. Pain to me is something that is quite specific and the ability to gain pleasure from pain exists in a band that i can not explain easily. But at best, it's pain that is delivered in a way that is not biting, in the way a cane does. So in light of this, i was actually dreading being whipped. When i was told to stand with my back to Mistress Diva, i tried hard to relax and move in to the pain. To my surprise, it was not an un-pleasurable sensation. It resonated in a way with small pin pricks to the skin, leaving an after-glow a few seconds later. It was very different to flogging and no-where near as horrible as being caned. The only time i found it uncomfortable was when it bit into the top of my neck. But looking back, i would like to experience it again, building up in intensity to see where it goes.
Time seemed to go very quickly and Mistress Diva made Her goodbyes and i was soon driving back down the motorway to take Mistress Diva home. i felt tired, but also very peaceful inside. Calm almost but feeling that this is what i like and just being there with Mistress Diva gives me an inner sense of well-being.
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