Well, life is getting back into it's normal groove. Back from NY, back to work but Mistress Diva away. However, i had the pleasure and honour of taking Her to dinner on Tuesday night so not all is wrong with the world.
The trip to NY was a struggle. It's a city full of many temptations for the perverted among us. Past trips have had me experiencing all sorts of things, from well endowed TS's through to visits to other Mistresses. But now my life is given to one and that of course means i will not give in to previous desires. In many ways, being so busy whilst out there did mean i did not really have much time to think about such things.
But it was not all work of course! Mistress Diva gave me a command which was both a welcome relief and a challenge. It seems to have been for ever since i last masturbated and i was give permission to do so by Mistress Diva. However, there was an additional requirement of course! i was to bring myself close to orgasm 6 times before finally allowing release. i usually rely on visual stimulation to achieve orgasm when masturbating. But i thought it best this time to not do so this time as i would probably bring myself to the edge to quickly and not be able to last. So, lying down, erection in hand started. It's funny but masturbation was always a thing i enjoyed doing and never really thought about it. However, this time, i knew that i had to do it in a different way, in a way that Mistress Diva wanted completing. i felt myself come close to orgasm quite quickly it had been so long since i had cum. But stopping, allowing things to subside and then starting again. Lasted a bit longer the next time, but again could feel the pressure in my legs as the muscles tightened and again stopping before actual ejaculation. Again, brief rest, start again. By now i am sweating a bit as well and know that i am getting closer to the edge with each recommencement. The process of thinking about what i am doing, rather than just allowing my hand to grip my cock and bring myself off is so different. This time, i don't wank so fast. Just long slow strokes, not really sure what i should be thinking of other than not ejaculating just at that moment. The other thing of course is that if become to distracted i will lose my erection thus losing the ability to masturbate properly! A conundrum. What started out in my mind as a simple task suddenly takes on all sorts of new dimensions. Again, i feel myself close to orgasm, i stop and rest. 3 times now, not sure i can actually last all 6. Started to wonder if i was given a time-limit to complete the task. But knew that was not in the spirit intended. So again, start to masturbate. It does feel so good. Just the feeling of my cock in my hand is nice. Now its a strange thing, the mind. i knew what was expected but i also knew that i was now desperate to actually cum and i have to now admit that this part of me took over. i could not hold myself back and in less than 10 strokes i ejaculated. i knew that i had failed and a big part of my was angry at myself but all my male side was in post-cum pleasure, looking at the amount of cum i had produced. Had it really been that long... well yes it had. Would i admit this to Mistress Diva. Well, i know that i cannot keep anything from Mistress Diva and indeed nor do i want to. So yes, i would admit my failure to Mistress Diva. Was just not sure when i guess.
The rest of the week passed in much the same way with work etc. and then some vacation time, seeing some of the sites of New York. Ironically on the last day i saw a great gift but due to personal circumstance was unable to get it. However i am sure that i can remedy that. Back to London and then meeting up with Mistress Diva on Tuesday night. Seeing Mistress Diva, in any context, makes my heart lift. Sounds really stupid, but that is the effect She has on me. i smile inside and out when i see Her, knowing that i want to please Her, to show Her that i am worthy to be called Her slave by myself and others. Dinner ended all to soon and we were saying goodbye. i knew that i would not see Mistress Diva for another 2 weeks. But i also knew that i would do all i can in that time to continue my submission to Mistress Diva and continue my journey with Her to what i feel i truly can be.
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