Bank-holiday Saturday. Bit of a nothing day really. But, it was also the first day i completed the task set by Mistress Diva, namely to stand under a cold shower each day for 3 minutes and whilst doing so think of Her. Now its worth knowing that i only spend about 5 minutes in the shower in total up until now. In, wash, out. No messing around.



OK, so i will admit it. The task. Its not something i like. In fact, the first thoughts that came to my mind were not very submissive at all, rather they dealt with horrible revenge of some form or another in an unspecified way. No matter what, i could not concentrate. The only thing i wanted was for 180 seconds to pass and pass quickly. As much as i tried to focus on Mistress Diva all i kept coming back to was that i was cold and felt miserable after a hot shower. i was sure that i would go down with pneumonia or something equally life threating. But complete it i did and when i got out of the shower a brisk towelling got me warm again. The only trouble is of course is that as yet i do not see the point of it. Is it to concentrate through something i dislike? i don't know but i am sure it will come to me soon.



The rest of the day was busy and because of tomorrow (No.1 son's birthday) meant that i spent most of the day driving to various shops. But whilst in the car it did give me the chance to think about Mistress Diva. One thing i must do it be sober when i post a message. i have promised myself that i will not edit anything i have posted after the event. Its a bit like cheating and serves no purpose. So the thoughts stand. But looking back at the last entry i did seem to repeat a lot!



i have been given permission to masturbate once whilst Mistress Diva is away. But what day! Tomorrow or Monday i suspect but even how? Am i allowed to use any visual imagery or just get it done with. Another dilemma, another question i cannot really answer. Where is Mistress Diva when i need Her!!