In reality my mind was in turmoil and once again, my innate stupidity did not really comprehend was was actually being offered. It took an explanation from Mistress Diva that this was not just about sessioning together, it was a lot more. i would spend time with Mistress Diva outside the dungeon, eventually taking her to parties, clubs etc. as Her slave. This was way beyond what i had ever considered and suddenly it was all i wanted. Nothing else seemed to matter and i knew that i had to accept. But once again, i seemed to want to blow it, not realising the significance of the contract ceremony. Thus suitably taught, i realised i had so much to learn.



It seemed best that i did not attend ESS&EMM. However this again was an error of mine, as although i had said to Mistress Diva i was going, it seemed i was not on the list. My stupidity can reign supreme at times. i did not get the point being made (again!) and in any event it was likely the party would be cancelled due to lack of attendees. However, my heart sang when i was told to make a dinner reservation for Monday, my choice of restaurant, in Richmond to meet with Mistress Diva and start to get to understand what was expected and offered. Of course, that in itself creates a whole new set of problems for the attentive submissive! Where to go, what sort of food. Nothing to flash, nothing down market.. have to strike just the right balance. My first task and i had to get it right.