Thursday. Its not only the big stuff with Mistress Diva such as sessions etc but also the little things that make this new relationship with Mistress Diva so great. Reading Her yahoo group, there was a post regarding Pedestal on Saturday. The last sentence.. "I will have a loyal slave from my stable attending to my needs". Thats me i thought and suddenly my whole mood lifted, i smiled and felt a warm glow. That such a group of words could mean so much and make me feel so good is something i never thought could have happened less than two months ago. But in such a short time, i have started to realise that this is what i have been searching for for so long but wonder if before now i was really ready to enter into a DS relationship of this type.



My head is hurting. i have been tasked to keep Mistress Diva up to date with billing information for Her new venture. Simple i thought, in my naive way! How wrong could i be. Its all so complex and i seem to be reading more and more and looking at what other sites are doing for their billing. i can see why Mistress Diva has delegated that task to me.



i have been thinking a lot about my fantasy. This was never going to be easy as the reality is that i don't have a fantasy as i would always rather my DS desires became realities. However, i have been giving it a lot of thought. It's almost done, my desire and dream. i always thought it would be something very dark and dangerous and use a lot of my previous experiences. But surprisingly it did not. Rather is has been influenced by books i have read and some of the feelings those books have aroused in me.



i feel very nervous about tomorrow. Something i have wanted to do for a long time is a photo-shoot with another Mistress, Mistress Sidonia. But now the chance has come along, part of me feels as if i am betraying my feelings for Mistress Diva. i know i have Her permission to do do but still, whereas a few months ago i would have been shouting from the rooftops now, i will keep it quiet and not tell others unless they ask me. A very different outlook and way of thinking has taken over in the last month. All to the good i feel.