Sunday 4th April, London Fetish Fair, London. This day was great but also put me in a slight dilemma. For a start i was 45 minutes late! So thats 45 pegs to come at another date! The dilemma though was that i was there both to see Mistress Diva and also to catch up with friends from UKM. i did not want to appear rude to either and hopefully i struck a balance. Time will tell i guess. The other reason to be there of course was to spend some money on my collar. Whilst i have a collar already, this was not bought with any significant factors in mind, it was a collar. However this would be my collar to wear with Mistress Diva and will come to represent part of my submission and slavery to Mistress Diva. This had already been discussed and i knew the stall that would probably have the best one and was the same as Mistress Diva. Thank-goodness for Top To Bottom Leathers! After i approached Mistress Diva to let Her know i was there, i went to see some friends who were there. Now, i know how i feel and the effect of seeing Mistress Diva has on me. However, i did not realise that it was so visible from the outside as well. Apparently, i was glowing, happy and smiling. Again, my emotions are so transparent at the moment that its almost as if i not the same person i was just a few weeks ago. Whilst never one to show much emotion anyway, i now seem to be showing everyone exactly how i feel when around Mistress Diva.



A couple of collars were looked at and Mistress Diva selected one She liked.. black with a silver trim and locking clasp. Padded, soft.. lovely. And of course a matching blindfold. Goods purchased, bagged up and then.. gone! Of course, part of me knew they would be taken by Mistress Diva for later use, but i would have liked a glimpse...a touch...but i am sure that will all come later. A bit more of a walk around and a look at a stall that specialises in medical type toys and it would seem a range of vicious look gags! Mistress Diva looked, selected and requested. i obliged hoping that we would not have to try it out there and then, indeed if we never have to use it on me i won't be that unhappy! i also got some things for myself. A set of cups, a toy i have wanted for some time and an evil little acupuncture hammer. Not something i will be using on myself but i am sure in the hands of Mistress Diva will provide hours of amusement for one of us.



Whilst with my friends, i could not stop looking across the bar to Mistress Diva. The most difficult part was to also concentrate on what my friends were saying whilst not giving away who i was looking at. i wanted to shout out what was changing in my life but knew i could not and never would without permission. Eventually the fair started to close. i stayed with Mistress Diva and plans were agreed for the following few days. Most importantly i would go to Fettered Pleasures with Mistress Diva on Wednesday. Something to look forward to certainly and give me more food for thought. Then something totally unexpected. In saying goodbye to Mistress Diva, i was first given Her hand to kiss. Then, Mistress Diva told me to kneel and kiss Her feet. For me, this was new ground. Public displays of worship and submission were never something i had ever really gone for. But again, it felt so natural, so right. i had no hesitation is doing it and was rewarded with a smile from Mistress Diva. Something that made me feel warm and happy all the way home.